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Name: Jason
Country: United States
State: New York
Gender: Male
Expertise: Computer Science, and it would come off pretentious but I like to think that I can write sometimes.
Occupation: Game Development and Design
Industry: Game Development (Video Games)
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AIM:  Hidinginwinter
Member Since:
7/8/2003
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| We all had mouths that opened too far when we laughed. We challenged each other in interesting ways and never said we were sorry when it hurt. We'd race mountain bikes down long, sloped driveways into traffic, and scrape our knees on the hot pavement when it couldn't slow us down. We were alive in bright colors, and strong odors of sweat and skin, in tangles as we watched the light creep through tiny slats in the windows. We were brave when we learned that our parents would age before us, soon too weak to take care of us. We showed strength when they passed on. We were impatient when we had children of our own, and we made mistakes. We were always right, and we were always to blame.
Life is a series of joys, disappointments and compromises. | | |
| We know you've come for the people you love, but each day you take just a few too many. Friends and family, somewhere better off or better off somewhere else. Sink, sink, sink dear ship. We've spent so long on this expansive blue, we ought to see what lies at the bottom. All we can see from up here is faces we didn't ever take the time to know, staring back at us. There's no time left to witness, we should be acting. | | |
| This can't keep happening love, respect and each moment I forget to breathe. fragile seconds of time where I plan out my words and abandon them given to you, as a child to take care of to raise to not resent it's parents those brief moments of intamacy challenged in our days
"A little less love, a little more common decency." | | |
| you can keep covering yourself in ash all day
holding on to the places you've feared and holding them inside you
but it won't be too long until you look around
and realize that no one is holding you back any longer
and there's nothing standing in the way of you getting what you want
so don't be afraid. Just fucking do it.
- maybe I should take my own advice. | | |
| I fear I've lost you, somewhere along the lines of me tearing my own life apart. I've been pulling at the seams for as long as I can remember, and you've never once turned away. You've seen me self destruct, you've been with me in my most intimate moments. I've carried your image, your words, and all the needless pain I've caused you each day that I wake up somewhere you're not. I took a picture last time, and it's still with me every day, staring back at me, your smile not knowing, or maybe not caring, what was going to happen. One day all of this will make sense, and I'll be able to rest without wondering who you're filling your time with. One day I'll be able to think that you're not wasting away years without me. But who am I to comment? I'm the one who's been calling all the shots, and you have every right to hate me, and hate how I've treated you, despite what my intentions are. There's no excuse for what I've done, and I should lose the right to call you a friend.
One day, I'll figure this all out, I swear. I just wish I was strong enough to do it today. | | |
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